Lay Awake

by Copper Leaf

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05:14
2.
03:22
3.
03:23
4.
00:37
5.
03:56
6.
00:43
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03:11
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04:28
10.
06:31
11.
00:36
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00:26
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00:23
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credits

released November 19, 2016

All songs by Sawyer Bernath, except 16 by Sawyer Bernath and Eric Dorr.

Recorded at:
The Keep Recording (Denver) by Nick Sullivan.
Coupe Studios (Boulder) by John McVey and Brandon Calano.
Home.

Mixed by Greg Giorgio
Mastered by TW Walsh

Bradley Morse - Upright bass
Carl Sorenson - Drums and percussion
Dave Laub - Alto and tenor sax
Eric Dorr - Trumpet, vocals on 1, 3, 5, 7, 8, 10, 14, 16
Jacob Passini - Cello on 3, 16
Leah Concialdi - Bari sax
Liz Berube - Vocals on 1, 2, 3, 5, 7, 8, 9, 16
Meagan Rudge - Vocals on 1, 3, 5, 10, 12, 14
Ryan Brasher - Vocals on 1, 14
Sydney Miller - Vocals on 10, 14
Theresa Peterson - Violin on 2, 8, 9, 10
Tyler Bentley - Trombone

String quartet:
Andrew Giordano - Violin
Joshua Ulrich - Violin
Andrew Krimm - Viola
Zachary Reeves - Cello

Additional thanks to:
Lane for teaching me 90% of what I know about recording music.
Ryan for arrangement assistance on 1 and 8.
Theresa for critiquing my lyrics.
Kristen for lending me the microphone.
E, K, L, E, M, M, C, for giving me something to write about.

Special thanks to Eric Dorr. Without him there wouldn't be an album and I'd probably be dead.

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Track Name: Mistaken
I guess your heart wasn't in it
You could have told me right away instead of struggling to spin it
Into one last week alone
You could have told me on the phone, but I guess you tried

Oh can you see me at the station
Pacing back and forth and I'm getting impatient
Oh what a sorry sight
I'd rather go out with a fight, but I guess you tried

So I sat on the platform
Thinking you must be late

Although I waited there, I was mistaken
I never thought I'd lose you by taking my time
I called you back but it was too late
Maybe this was the only thing I needed to
Understand my life's not completed
Until I find someone to help me let go

So now I stare at my reflection
In a supermarket window, I remember that tension
Standing in the checkout line
I acted like it was a crime to want to be alone

Now I stand at your front door
Knowing that it's too late

(Although I waited there, I was mistaken
I never thought I'd lose you by taking my time
I called you back but it was too late
Maybe this was the only thing I needed to
Understand my life's not completed
Until I find someone to help me let go) x2
Track Name: Carry On
I don't flinch anymore
When you look at me
It's a problem that I used to have
But not so much recently

I wake up in the night
Ready for another fight
You’re not there so I go back to sleep
Dreaming of the company you keep

Sometimes a bitter heart makes for a good start
But sometimes the best drink is the one you dump right down the sink

Carry out, carry in
Carry on living
I recall everything I've left behind
But I forget just where I've been

I can spit from here to where
You told me you didn't care
If I stayed or if I chose to go
If only I could let you know

(Sometimes a bitter heart makes for a good start
But sometimes the best drink is the one you dump right down the sink) x3
Track Name: Andrea
Andrea
Run out the door
Fall in that wicker chair
And cry some more

I heard you
As I lay in bed
Slipped outside quietly
Cradled your head

And in the morning, we awake
Eat breakfast together, just for safety's sake
But while you slept comfortably
I lay awake

We go out to
The bar for a drink
Say who you've fallen for
Ask what I think

I tell you
Honey that's fine
But as we walked home tonight
Your hand brushed mine

And in the morning, we awake
Eat breakfast together, just for safety's sake
But while you slept comfortably
I lay awake

(How I wish you'd cry for me once in a while) x4

Andrea
Though we once loved
I'll never be the one
You're dreaming of
Track Name: Letter Song
Sun in your eyes, close them every time
Head in the clouds, your hand in mine
Never a question whether to give

Now when I dream, it’s only you I dream of
When I think of you, I think only of love
Was it a struggle for you to live?

I've been thinking about four years ago
We had just met and we were getting to know
How to be lovers and stay as friends
How can you blame us for letting it end?
Track Name: Carolyn
My fickle feet have come down with disease
They refuse to move forward, I'm down on my knees because
My fickle feet have come down with disease
Her able arms have dropped down to her sides
They once pushed me up hills that I could not climb, but now
Her able arms have dropped down to her sides

I used to point towards Carolyn
Used to point forwards
Now I point towards where I've been
Always looking backwards

My leaded lungs sink me down in the deep
So I breathe very slowly and focus on sleep because
My leaded lungs keep me down in the deep
Her holy head is a book that I read
There's a sequel in progress filled with things that I said
The spring has been winding but more and more I'm finding
Reasons to be turn around

I used to point towards Carolyn
Used to point forwards
Now I point towards where I've been
Always looking backwards

(If ever you see me
Please point my way northwards
Please point my way northwards
Please point my way north
If ever you see me
Please point my way northwards
Cus I'm going south
Yes I'm going south) x2

(I used to point towards Carolyn
Used to point forwards
Now I point towards where I've been
Always looking backwards) x2
Track Name: You Are Always On My Mind
I called your house last night
It was half past one but I knew you'd be awake
Watching your phone light up
From the side of the bed I used to lay on

"What do you want from me this time?"
I had never heard a whisper so insistent or uncompromising
My mind drifts to those nights
I would sleep with you but sleep would never come

As we get ready for bed
Something in me rears its ugly head
So when you turn to me and smile
I don't return your glance for quite a while, a while

But no matter what I do
I can't wash myself of you
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind

Ten minutes later
I am still on the phone, saying words I do not recognize
As usual, you stay silent
But I know you'd scream if you were ever able

As we get ready for bed
Something in me rears its ugly head
So when you turn to me and smile
I don't return your glance for quite a while, a while

But no matter what I do
I can't wash myself of you
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
But no matter what I do
I can't wash myself of you
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
Track Name: Real Person
I'm not a real person
No I'm not a real person
I'm just a caricature, a caricature
Of a caring young lover

When I go to bed, I'm not really getting sleep
And though I walk the streets, I've got no dates to keep
When I'm making friends, I just can't memorize
Names or faces like those other guys

When I'm baking bread, I'm not really making bread
And when I get ahead, I get behind instead
When I'm making friends, they don't know what to make of me
My words are quantity, over quality

I'm not a real person
No I'm not a real person
I'm just a caricature, a caricature
Of an honest hard worker

When I'm acting mean, I'm not really feeling mean
And when I take a bath, I'm not really getting clean
When I'm losing weight, I'm losing energy
And when you lie to me, well that's just fine with me

(I'm not a real person
No I'm not a real person
I'm just a caricature, a caricature
Of a caring young lover) x2
Track Name: Wanted To Be
When I heard what you were letting
Him do to you, I closed my eyes
Think back to you in high school
Would she ever let this happen to her?

Don't hide, I see your face in the light
Please come with me, you don't have to stay here
My feet are matching you step for step and my lungs breath for breath
Lie for lie, I know you

And when you fall asleep do you dream of me
Like I was at eighteen?
Awake and you will find the world outside your mind
Not what you wanted it to be

Teach me something new and wonderful
Teach me chemistry or history
Tell him I'm not a threat, standing here, watching you, underfed
Sunken eyes, and me saying my goodbyes

And when you fall asleep do you dream of me
Like I was at eighteen?
Awake and you will find the world outside your mind
Not what you wanted it to be

You used to laugh at me, I never knew why
Now I look back at those days with new eyes
It's not like I could have prevented this, could I? Could I?

And when you fall asleep do you dream of me
Like I was at eighteen?
Awake and you will find the world outside your mind
Not what you wanted it to be
Track Name: One I'm Waiting For
Visit me in a dream
End up late for the final scene
I don't mind, I've got time

Tell me a story I've heard
Expect me to act surprised
I don't mind, I've got time

Say that all the other boys don't compare
And I'm the one you're waiting for
Years pass by and I don't care
'Cus you're the one I'm waiting for

Move to the city leave me
Alone underneath the trees
I'll be fine, I've got time

Tell all your friends that I'm dead
Take another man to bed
I'll be fine, I've got time

Say that all the other boys don't compare
And I'm the one you're waiting for
Years pass by and I don't care
'Cus you're the one I'm waiting for

Look how independent we've become
Anyone looking in would think we're done, done, done

(Say that all the other boys don't compare
And I'm the one you're waiting for
Years pass by and I don't care
'Cus you're the one I'm waiting for) x2
Track Name: Has Anything Changed?
When we broke I think I lost my mind
Couldn't stand the sight of you, shouted myself blind
Drove my car into the lake when I found out your smile was fake
And everything I felt was out of line

That email that you wrote to me was neat
Told me you'd been sleeping less, you barely even eat
And in the mirror of the knife, my sunny face, my vibrant life
So down the road, don't go cross the street
Down the road, don’t go cross the street

Has anything changed
Now that our tie is severed?
I kill time the same ways
We just don't sleep together

If I swore I loved you from the start
If I told you darling you are always in my heart
Then when I see you every day, will you turn to me and say,
“I understand the reasons we're apart.”

And I'll respond with, “God I hope you do.”
I can't recall a single word you told me that was true.
So if you're feeling vulnerable, just know that it's impossible
For you to hate me more than I hate you
For you to hate me more than I hate you

(Has anything changed
Now that our tie is severed
I kill time the same ways
We just don't sleep together) x2

Eric says you're going through some shit
That's why you smoke cigarettes even though you hate it
Even though we twice agreed the smell just makes us sick
But baby if you're down, I'll take a hit
I'd much rather feel this way than try to quit

(Has anything changed
Now that our tie is severed
I kill time the same ways
We just don't sleep together) x2
Track Name: These Days I'm Dancing
You always swore you wanted what was best for me
Kept me safe inside and held me desperately
And every happy thought I ever dared pursue
You shot them down so quickly, I don't know why I kept loving you

Now I have another song to sing
A chaotic, sweaty, fearless, pretty, perfect sort of thing
She don't pass her beer off to any other man
She gets me to cancel all my plans

These days I'm dancing
Don't call me after ten
'Cus I'll be dancing
I will not live for you like I did back then

Yes I'll admit I still get nightmares sometimes
Locked away in darkness for some awful crime
But it's not like I come to and wish that you were here
I would rather not wake up than wake up next to you, my dear

Now I have her smile to look forward to
When all I ever used to get was tears from you
She always smells like fireworks, a new color everyday
She speaks for me when I don't know what to say

These days I'm dancing
Don't call me after ten
'Cus I'll be dancing
I will not live for you

Now I know that everything good isn't always true
I lie to myself to give me something to do
But when she stops and spins around in place
As streetlights play upon her face
It's a full moon and it's time to forget about you

These days I'm dancing
Don't call me after ten
'Cus I'll be dancing
I will not live for you now

These days I'm dancing
Don't call me after ten
'Cus I'll be dancing
I will not live for you like I did back then